Bi-weekly Wednesday Wrap Up Sept 14th, 2022

What I am currently reading

Frankenstein by Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley – I’m making progress on the extras.

Cannabis Pharmacy: The Practical Guide to Medical Marijuana by Michael Backes – Making progress on this to.

Slewfoot: A Tale of Bewitchery by Brom – I’ve read one chapter so far. I need to continue it.

What I’ve recently finished

Lagoon by Nnedi Okorafor – 4 stars

Thought provoking and interesting. Not sure what to say though, but glad I read it.

Dracula by Bram Stoker – DNF

I give up. I read Dracula (all of it) a few years ago. I didn’t like it. I thought maybe i’d appreciate it more now, but I don’t. I listened to 2 chapters. The narrators are great, if you love Dracula check it out (you can find it on audible.com – has Tim Curry and a whole cast). I’m bored. I hate that I don’t like it, I LOVE vampires … generally. But this just doesn’t work for me. I really thought i’d be able to get into it but I can’t, I just can’t. I’ve loved (years ago, I need to rewatch it) the Dracula movie with Gary Oldman. I should just rewatch it.

What do I think i’ll read next?

I don’t know.

Other Stuff

I’m still recovering, from the surgery and I have a cold. My stomach is in all sorts of pain. My normal medical issues, fluid build up, still recovering from the surgery .. I have started making YouTube videos again, being more relaxed about it. The link below links to my linktree which has links to all my social media.

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August Wrap Up

What I Read

BBC Wildlife Magazine – May 2022 by Immediate Media Company London Ltd – 4 stars

Haben: The Deafblind Woman Who Conquered Harvard Law by Haban Girma – 5 stars

This is a wonderful autobiography! I loved how stories from her life was told in the pretense tense, it felt so much more personal. It’s also infused with humor. You can learn so much from this, in an accessible way and having a nice time while doing it. Please read the discussion questions at the end, they give food for thought.

I have also been disabled my entire life but for entirely different reasons. I am neither deaf nor blind. I do have auditory processing disorder though so when she mentions there was too much noise to make anything out, I relate to that. I can’t make anything out in those situations either.

She’s the first deafblind student to graduate Harvard, and she’s barely 6 months older than me. We still have so far to go, but that’s not meant to take away from how far we’ve come.

BBC Science Focus Magazine by Immediate Media Company London Ltd – 4 stars

Me and My Dysphoria Monster: An Empowering Story to Help Children Cope with Gender Dysphoria by Laura Kate Dale and Hui Qing Ang – 5 stars

I wish i’d had this as a child. I would’ve had the words and known I wasn’t alone so much sooner.

There are some draft errors (like on one page it says missing words and later some sentences just stop in the middle) but I got this from Netgalley and it is an e-arc draft so i’m not holding that against it.

Nisha is a trans girl. She has a dysphoria monster that keeps getting bigger as she’s misgendered but then she comes out and has support and her monster gets smaller. At first she wanted her monster to just go away but with the help of an adult trans man learns what her monster was trying to tell her, and living as who she is makes her so much happier and confident. It’s a beautiful story and has information for adults wanting to support trans kids after the story. I highly recommend this book!

Thank you to the publisher and Netgalley for the e-arc.

Stinetinglers: All New Stories by the Master of Scary Tales by R.L. Stine – 3.65 stars

I really enjoyed this collection over-all! It has 10 stories. I didn’t care for 2 of them personally (but I didn’t hate them or anything) and I really enjoyed the other 8! 3.65 average rounded up to 4
Welcome to the in-between 3.5
Our Little Monsters 2
Skin 3
The Ghost in the car 4
The boy who heard screams 5
Bugs 3.5
How to change your life 4
The bad side 4.5
The hole in the ground 5
The monster maker 2
These are obviously just my opinions, nothing more.
These stories are perfect for kids I think and they are certainly fun to read as an adult to. If you enjoy Goosebumps (or Goosebumps like books) definitely check this collection out. A few of them gave my spine a tingle!

Philosophy Now – Issue 150 by Anja Publications – 3 stars

Other Stuff

I think i’m on the way to healing but not there yet. My body has been through a lot with the surgery and the sickness.

I did update my “about me” page a bit since I plan to talk about cannabis as well now. The books aren’t going anywhere though, still love to read!

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September POP (Pile of Possibilities)

Netgalley

To Be A Trans Man by Ezra Woodger

A Little Pinprick by Paige Dearth

Group Reads

Slewfoot: A Tale of Bewitchery by Brom – The group pick for Creatures, Creatures Everywhere!

Lagoon by Nnedi Okorafor – My pick for The eclecticist of eclectic book club

Dracula by Bram Stoker – Georga’s pick for The eclecticist of eclectic book club

Magazines

BBC Wildlife Magazine – June 2022

BBC Science Focus Magazine – June 2022

Archaeology – July/August 2022

Discover – July/August 2022

BBC Wildlife Magazine – July 2022

BBC Science Focus Magazine – July 2022

BBC Science Focus Magazine Summer 2022

BBC Wildlife Magazine August 2022

Of course I still wouldn’t be caught up but i’ve been struggling lately so it is what it is.

Comics and Manga

Saga, Volume 7 and 8 by Brian K. Vaughan and Fiona Staples – Still working on my reread!

Monster Musume, Vol. 10 and 11 by Okayado – Still working on catching up!

Currently Reading

Frankenstein by Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley – I’m in the extras after the story.

Cannabis Pharmacy: The Practical Guide to Medical Marijuana by Michael Backes – Recently got my medical card so I want to make sure I learn as much as I can.

Of course there is more I want to read (and might, it is a POP after all) but even this is a lot!

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Stinetinglers: All New Stories by the Master of Scary Tales by R.L. Stine Book Review

Stinetinglers: All New Stories by the Master of Scary Tales by R.L. Stine

I really enjoyed this collection over-all! It has 10 stories. I didn’t care for 2 of them personally (but I didn’t hate them or anything) and I really enjoyed the other 8! 3.65 average rounded up to 4
Welcome to the in-between 3.5
Our Little Monsters 2
Skin 3
The Ghost in the car 4
The boy who heard screams 5
Bugs 3.5
How to change your life 4
The bad side 4.5
The hole in the ground 5
The monster maker 2
These are obviously just my opinions, nothing more.
These stories are perfect for kids I think and they are certainly fun to read as an adult to. If you enjoy Goosebumps (or Goosebumps like books) definitely check this collection out. A few of them gave my spine a tingle!

Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for this e-arc.

Me and My Dysphoria Monster: An Empowering Story to Help Children Cope with Gender Dysphoria by Laura Kate Dale and Hui Qing Ang Book Review

I wish i’d had this as a child. I would’ve had the words and known I wasn’t alone so much sooner.

There are some draft errors (like on one page it says missing words and later some sentences just stop in the middle) but I got this from Netgalley and it is an e-arc draft so i’m not holding that against it.

Nisha is a trans girl. She has a dysphoria monster that keeps getting bigger as she’s misgendered but then she comes out and has support and her monster gets smaller. At first she wanted her monster to just go away but with the help of an adult trans man learns what her monster was trying to tell her, and living as who she is makes her so much happier and confident. It’s a beautiful story and has information for adults wanting to support trans kids after the story. I highly recommend this book!

Thank you to the publisher and Netgalley for the e-arc.

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Wednesday Wrap Up August 17th, 2022

I know it’s been 2 weeks again since the last one but I had nothing to post last week really. Hell, I don’t have much now.

What I am currently reading

Nothing at the moment.

What i’ve recently finished

Haben: The Deafblind Woman Who Conquered Harvard Law by Haban Girma – 5 stars!

This is a wonderful autobiography! I loved how stories from her life was told in the present tense, it felt so much more personal. It’s also infused with humor. You can learn so much from this, in an accessible way and having a nice time while doing it. Please read the discussion questions at the end, they give food for thought.

I have also been disabled my entire life but for entirely different reasons. I am neither deaf nor blind. I do have auditory processing disorder though so when she mentions there was too much noise to make anything out, I relate to that. I can’t make anything out in those situations either.

She’s the first deafblind student to graduate Harvard, and she’s barely 6 months older than me. We still have so far to go, but that’s not meant to take away from how far we’ve come.

What do I think i’ll read next?

Something for netgalley? A magazine? Who knows. Maybe something else.

Other Stuff

Me and my mom are sick. It’s not covid but it still sucks and I can’t get a break because it’s one thing after another trying to recover from intense surgery still and now i’m sick on top of it and my body has a lot of trouble healing in the best of circumstances :(. But the drain sites look better so hopefully in time i’ll get better. If this cold doesn’t turn into pneumonia which they love to do with me. Please, send good vibes or whatever.

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August Book Haul Part 1

Kindle Books

Moretti Blood Brothers: Volume One – Books 1-4: Steamy vampire romance (Moretti Blood Brothers Romance) by Juliette N. Banks
No One Crosses the Wolf by Lisa Nikolidakis
The Reyes Incident by Briana Morgan
Elliot, Song of the Soulmate by Anyta Sunday
Nightshade by Michelle Rowen
She Who Became the Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan
Coffin Road by Peter May
Infernal Justice by N.P. Martin
The Twenty Days of Turin by Giorgio De Maria
Open Veins of Latin America: Five Centuries of the Pillage of a Continent by Eduardo Galeano
Born Free: The Full Story by Joy Adamson
Small Spaces by Katherine Arden
When I Find You by Emma Curtis
Discover – September/October 2022 by Kalmbach Publishing Co.
Archaeology – September/October 2022 by Archaeological Institute Of America

Physical Books

John M. Templeton Jr.: Physician, Philanthropist, Seeker by John M. Templeton Jr.

I was born with VACteRL Association and a part of that was imperforate anus aka no butthole. Dr. Templeton, who passed away in 2015, made my anus. I was born in 1989. That’s why I got his autobiography. My mom wants to read it since he helped save my life. It is a bit weird though … wiki says he donated $1 million to parties opposing same-sex marriage. I wonder what he’d say now if he knew he saved a queer baby? I can’t help but wonder.

Long Live the Pumpkin Queen: Tim Burton’s The Nightmare Before Christmas by Shea Ernshaw
Fifty Shades Darker by E.L. James
Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney
Small Angels by Lauren Owen
When We Were Bright and Beautiful by Jillian Medoff
How to Smoke Pot (Properly): A Highbrow Guide to Getting High by David Bienenstock
Weed: Everything You Want To Know But Are Always Too Stoned To Ask by Michelle Lhooq
Weed the People: The Future of Legal Marijuana in America by Bruce Barcott
Higher Etiquette: A Guide to the World of Cannabis, from Dispensaries to Dinner Parties by Lizzie Post
Fifty Shades as Told by Christian Trilogy: Grey, Darker, Freed Box Set by E.L. James
A Short History of South-East Asia by Peter Church
Accidents of Nature by Harriet McBryde Johnson

Epubs

The Alloy of Law by Brandon Sanderson

Audio Books

The Office of Historical Corrections by Danielle Evans
A Life on Our Planet: My Witness Statement and a Vision for the Future by David Attenborough

July Book Haul Part 2

Kindle Books

The One by John Marrs
After Life by Shelbi Wescott
Taming Tristan by Leighton Greene
The Sisters of Kestrel Cay by Kelly Utt
Lockstep by Robert P. French
The Cowboy and the Vampire: A Very Unusual Romance by Clark Hays and Kathleen McFall
Ink Witch by Lindsey Sparks
Bare Ass in Love by Sasha Burke
The Bite-sized Bakery Cozy Mysteries: The Complete Collection by Rosie A. Point
Littered with Trouble by Eryn Scott
Only for the Night by Ella Sheridan
Grounded by Sarah Hualde
His Other Wife by Ava Strong
His Other Lie by Ava Strong
The Last Storm by Sam Sisavath
The Librarian and the Orc by Finley Fenn
Philosophy Now by Anja Publications

Physical Books

Horrors of the Black Ring by R.L. Stine
Ghost in the Mirror by R.L. Stine
Halloween Rain by Christopher Golden and Nancy Holder
Return to Ghost Camp by R.L. Stine
The Werewolf in the Living Room by R.L. Stine

Netgalley

Me and My Dysphoria Monster: An Empowering Story to Help Children Cope with Gender Dysphoria by Laura Kate Dale

Epubs

The Border Keeper by Kerstin Hall

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Weekly Wednesday Wrap Up August 3rd, 2022

I know it’s been more than a week, because of surgery, and I was going to try to do one last week but the only book I read was The Gender Friend: A 102 Guide to Gender Identity by Oakley Phoenix which I had already wrote a review for Here. So here’s just the past week!

What I am currently reading

Nothing at the moment. Hopefully that’ll change soon, we’ll see. There is at least one book I need to read this month but since i’m feeling like shit (I appear to have an infection from the surgery drains I still have but I am on an antibiotic now so here’s hoping i’ll be ok) i’m not sure what else i’ll get to.

What I finished in the past week

Paradise Club by Tim Meyer – This was good gorey slasher fun! And I liked the characters to, even cried a little bit at a certain death. Gave it 5 stars.

Discover – May/June 2022 by Kalmbach Publishing Co. – Science Magazine. Gave it 3 stars.

BBC Wildlife Magazine – May 2022 by Immediate Media Company London Ltd – Animals and nature magazine. Gave it 4 stars.

What do I think i’ll read next?

Haben: The Deafblind Woman Who Conquered Harvard Law by Haban Girma – This book is the bare minimum I need to read this month, because I picked it for a book club, The eclecticist of eclectic book club. Hopefully i’ll read more but, who knows. I certainly don’t. I do have an August Pile of Possibilities that’ll be posted on Saturday.

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My Reading Journey

When I was in elementary school I had no idea why I struggled with reading comprehension. I could read and I could read fast but remembering what I read? How the hell does one do that? I didn’t know I have aphantasia and that others were being literal about seeing pictures in their head. I have aphantasia in ALL the senses (technically aphantasia just refers to pictures but the other senses don’t have words as far as I know, so you know I mean). I love having aphantasia because reasons. That’s not what this post is about. If you are going to pity me over it, i’m going to ignore you. That could be it’s own post. We all think differently, and yes I can think just fine, it’s just different. (Please note: If you have aphantasia you are allowed to feel however you feel about it)

Anyway because I thought differently and didn’t know that, I struggled and no one could help me. Aphantasia wasn’t a word (even though it was described back in the 1880s) in the 90s. It became a word in 2015. I graduated high school in 2007.

School didn’t help me and the books I had to read for school were so boring and unrelatable (I loved The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton I had to read in 7th grade, because I could feel for the characters. That is the ONLY book I read for school I enjoyed). I couldn’t find any representation for people like me. Disabled kids. Queer kids (also grew up in homophobic because religious family). I didn’t know i’m autistic then either so I could add neurodivergent to the list. And to top it off, I wasn’t allowed to read some things I wanted to, like Harry Potter (because religion). All that combined, i’m surprised I didn’t hate reading with a passion, but it did turn me off.

Thankfully I found Goosebumps as a kid and loved it! Goosebumps, Fear Street. I didn’t read a ton but I enjoyed reading them when I could and a couple other odd books maybe. I’ve always loved the horror genre.

After high school, I didn’t read much. I read a little but mostly, if not completely, books about paganism now that I could explore that because adult. I thought I was “too old” for Harry Potter so it was “too little too late” for me there.

At 26, almost 27, years old in late 2015 I realized I was being dumb. And i’d always had a desire to read, despite my frustration. I still didn’t know about aphantasia though, even though at that point it had been named. It was like 2019 by the time I heard of aphantasia.

I started with Harry Potter, of course. I read it and watched the movies. Loved it. Where do I go from there though? Look up harry potter reviews on YouTube! I found BookTube and it spiraled from there. I read the Across the Universe series by Beth Revis next, and fell in love. Slowly I read more and more. I even found representation about characters like me, finally! Seriously, almost 27 when I read a book with the first bisexual representation i’d ever seen. Even later to find some disabled rep.

I learned I just had to slow the fuck down. I was reading too fast. I couldn’t process what I read. I had to learn it’s ok to whisper read (I can read silently to a degree but after so much it gets difficult and a mix of silent + whisper-reading is really what helps me the most). I was taught to stop doing that in elementary school, making the already difficult task of reading comprehension (well remembering) so much harder. I thought I was so dumb growing up.

I can think in silent words as well as it’s like stuff is going on on a computer screen with the monitor turned off. What I mean is, picture a desktop computer with a monitor and a tower. The tower is on and working. The monitor works. The speakers are unplugged or off. The monitor is off but the computer is working just fine. My brain is the computer. The files are there. I just can’t see the monitor.

Another way to think about it is there is stuff going on in a sound proof room I can’t see into because i’m outside of it but somehow I know exactly what’s going on inside. Well I don’t know things like colors or details but I know the basics. I know people are moving around etc. It’s hard to describe but i’m trying. I can “feel” the scene in my head, I just don’t hear it or see it (or technically “feel” anything as in the touch sense but there’s no other word for it).

So if I slow down and take the time to process the words and “feel” the scene/story, I can read just fine. No I won’t fucking remember what color stuff was or what clothes they wore unless i’m beaten over the head with it, because that stuff doesn’t matter (to me). I remember the characters, their personalities, the themes, what I thought and felt. There’s a reason you will never hear me say “but they don’t look like how I pictured them!” in regards to a book to movie adaptation. I simply don’t have that problem! I can understand certain things are important though in that regard.

Now I realize reading comprehension wasn’t my issue really. I could understand things, I just couldn’t remember things because I wasn’t letting myself process it. I’m slow to process but if I let myself process I can understand just fine.

I love to read now and am an avid reader. I don’t need to be a fast reader. I don’t need to be “the best”. I just need to have fun and enjoy reading.

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