My last update mentioned I lost my husband on Feb 16th. They thought his cancer had come back but that doesn’t seem to be the case. He had very bad teeth and it looks like he had an infection that got out of control, septic shock, heart failure (from a ton of fluid build up damaging his heart). Based on him having cancer in the past and the symptoms thinking it came back made sense, but no, it was just an infection that ran wild too long. Please take care of your teeth, see the doctor if you have anything odd going on even if you think you’re ok, and let your loved ones know you love them (I know it’s a cliche but it’s true, you don’t know how long you have with them, so cherish the time you do have).
Anyway, last night I was having a nightmare and I woke up, with my head going back and forth and it was a little after 4 am. I was a bit foggy brained but I turned and looked beside the bed, and I swear I saw an apparition. There wasn’t details, like facial features or anything, but it was human-shaped and I believe about the height of my husband, the outline looked like it could have been him. It was just white – like mist, but distinct. I’m not sure how to describe it, but I know what I saw. I kept blinking, hoping it’d get clearer (or possibly go away and tell me I was just seeing something that wasn’t there) and…it stayed. As I blinked again and again and waved my hand at him and said his name “Harley” “Harley, is that you?” (I think I asked that). It just…stayed as it was, seemingly a bit bent over looking at me.
It might have been a few minutes of that before it faded away, and I couldn’t get back to sleep for hours (I’ve been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately – I wasn’t scared or anything, I just couldn’t get back to sleep).
Normally i’m a skeptic believer, if that makes sense. I believe in ghosts, spirits, etc. but I also know sometimes there are other not paranormal explanations, so I believe in the stuff but I try and see if there could be another explanation first. And sure, maybe there is here, but I believe I saw him and that he’s watching over me. Maybe he even woke me up seeing I was having a nightmare.
If I saw what I think I saw, it was (to my knowledge) my first paranormal experience. Though obviously I wish he was still here with me, alive, since that isn’t an option, at least believing he’s watching over me is comforting.
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